my apologies

god will not send a burning bush to lead you to the right
place when he has given you grace and a brain
i'm sorry that life is so fucking hard but if you drank
from a dirty well in a dump in the desert i would feel pity.

who thinks that they have no choice in life?
you turn a way and change your world.
just pick something, damn it, and go for it.
just learn something and stop being a fool.

and if you fail, don't blame the fates
the person at fault was you
but so what? you pick yourself up and dust off the mistakes
remember where you tripped and fell on your face
and then pay attention to where you're going next time.

and if you get lost, don't blame it on god.
he gave you eyes and ears and a way to remember
and the simple things, while important, are not where to stumble
just laugh it off and buy a map. then the next time, turn towards
where you want to go, and not away.

i'm sorry that life is so hard
but i really don't care.
if you're wandering alone and have no one to
tell you where to go, is it possible you drove them away?

fuck it all.
who gives a damn about life if there's no living?
and if you wake up tomorrow and find no meaning in
the world, don't blame anyone. not the fates, not god, not even
the ones you love. meaning is only in context, and
is pointless if you forget to wake up.

shake off the daisies, you're not dead yet
you've still got time
whoever you've buried will wait.

death is only chasing you, and lies are everywhere
you turn, and it's easy to forget who you are,
and everything is confusing.

and if i lose my imagination, and live only in the prose
and forget the ones who love me
and swallow death
i have only cheated me.

but that's just today.